i came back from training today feeling kinda happy. =) Cos i had a nice workout, learned some useful tips to improve on my pattern, and hopefully i can do better for the grading next month. i know i still sucks at my coordination, but i'm learning.

The senior who is a policeman showed some moves on how he 'catches thieves'; generally, how to get out of tight positions and how to hurt someone really bad when you're cornered. And he said some things which i find to be very true: "Never let people think that they can bully you. Always stand up for yourself." He also mention that this applies at work place as well.

Then later coincidentally i sat beside ko in the bus and we had dinner together. =)

Came back to my room only to find an email from my bioD TA saying he's finish marking our first CA essay.

"Dear Grp A2 members,
I had finished marking all your essays and I must say I didn't really enjoy it very much! Most of you did rather poorly for the essay..."

=(

How thoughtful of him.

i know it's just a CA. i keep telling myself that. i'm starting to be pessimistic again. i hate that feeling.

i know =) + =) - =( is supposed to be =)

but no, i'm so =( now..

It's not just about the CA. i guess it just triggered the whole pessimestic feeling. i don't what am i suppose to feel..sometimes i just feel so numb. i'm just trying to come to terms to how i feel. One moment i thought i was quite enjoying uni life now, the excitement and the new environment; the next moment, i feel like i need a breather from it all. And i'm still trying to grapple with...practically everything.

i need Faith.