i've committed a sin yesterday.

know those cute creatures with a trademark of pink nose and a coat of white fur? well, i killed 1 yesterday. or at least 1 died because of me/for me. *sobz*
yesterday was my second dissection on white rat. all the rats from the first dissection has to be dispose of because they actually decayed. it turn out that the formalin used was too diluted. rumour has it that the whole bio lab stinks. can u believe this? there was a 'made in germany' mark on the formalin container. but after the 'stinking incident', the sch trace back and found that the formalin was actually 'made in china'. talk about 'made in china' goods! so we have a second dissection because the first 1 was not complete. u have no idea what that means. initially, each student from every years have to dissect only 2 rats at the most. but this year, we have to do 3! *sigh* another 35 rats have to die.

i got a female last time but a male 1 this time. i got a bleeder (at least that's what i think they say in medical term). initially it was okay. i did the incision on the skin, which was faster than last time (i hate to say this but 'practise makes perfect'?). then i tried to distinguish all the internal organs. the teacher kept saying 'look as much as u can, dun let the rat died for nothing'. right. so HY and i were pointing away at the organs (both of us got male ones) and tried to identify them based on diagrams. now, this is the hard part cos the organs can look so different on diagrams and in real. sure, u know those dark red lobes are liver, the grey 1 is the stomach, spleen is the small dark red 1, but what about the those gluey, pinky tracts in between? i had a hard time trying to figure out those tracts. i think they're suppose to be colon/ileum/or some other digestive tracts. what a pity. looks like my rat died for nothing. hope that i can do better next time tho. then LC's rat's heart was still beating which led me to question how is a person/an organism pronounce dead? is it when the heart stops beating or when the organism stops breathing?(hmm... something to ponder about...)

i started to panic a bit as other people was starting to eliminate the whole digestive system. again, trouble again as the whole thing wouldn't budge despite that i've cut the oesophagus. so in a rush i cut some tracts. then the blood start to ooze out. oh oh. too late. after that was a rush to wash the rat, tie a string with my name on it (was too busy to bother that it's my name on the dead rat), wash the apparatus a.k.a murder weapon and lastly, my hands. cheers as some1 brought shokobutse soap.

i wouldn't said i enjoy the whole thing as that would be inhumane but that's not bad either considering that i've been dreading to do it.